In this post, I will share my personal experience with you, but first, let’s understand what ‘Vairagya’ is.
Vairagya
Vairagya is a Sanskrit term which means detachment and dispassion. Detachment means the absence of attachment to the material world.
On the other hand, dispassion means freedom from attachment to pleasure, praise, and relationships, among other things, without letting them disturb inner peace.
Vairagya simply means living like a lotus, present in the water (material world) but untouched by it.
The material world includes material success and achievements, competition, material possessions and high socio-economic status.
It is the ego which compels one to achieve what includes the material world. And hence, the ego is the most significant barrier to entering the world of spirituality.
Kundalini Awakening and Detachment
When a person experiences a full Kundalini awakening, the process of detachment begins. Interest in materialism begins to decline.
One thing I would like to emphasise is that the detachment process after Kundalini awakening is a gradual one.
It is not necessary that only a person awakened to Kundalini can attain Vairagya. Many saints in the past didn’t experience Kundalini awakening but still attained Vairagya.
This is because the ego begins to lose its grip, and the effects of materialism start to decrease. The material world begins to look like a ‘Mirage’!
My Experience
I experienced a full Kundalini awakening in August 2014 at the age of 31. The awakening was like a new birth.
Before my awakening, I wanted to enter the Bollywood (Indian Film Industry). Although I was not interested in money, I was interested in fame.
My dream was to leave a mark on this world through my talent. Yes! I wanted to receive big awards, including Oscars.
But after my awakening, I realised my purpose. I realised that I have been sent here to raise the consciousness of this world with all the true knowledge I have attained since my awakening. And this purpose is a selfless service.
After my awakening, my ego dissolved, and my interest in materialism started to decrease. At present (September 2025), I have attained 75 per cent Vairagya. However, I still have a 25 per cent engagement rate.
Signs of my 75 per cent Vairagya:
- Dissolution of Ego
- No interest in material success or competition
- Contentment
- No interest in money or possessions
- Living a life of purpose to raise the consciousness of this world
- No interest in small talk, materialistic conversations, news and politics
- Strong interest in spiritual conversations, which are rare in this material world
Being Content at This Stage
At 75 per cent Vairagya, I am still happy and satisfied. I am living a life of contentment. I have been in solitude since 2002.
I have a loving mom who protected me when I was in hell. She is still with me and continues to support me. She is getting old, and I have a great responsibility to take care of her in her old age.
Yes! I am deeply attached to my mom, and I can’t live without her. I am truly blessed to have her in my life.
True Vairagya
True Vairagya is not considered external renunciation. In fact, it is to be in the family, fulfilling all responsibilities such as taking care of parents, partner, and children, while still being inwardly detached!
The Message
One of the most important things which I have realised is that you can’t force yourself to attain Vairagya. In fact, it occurs naturally. If you are destined for it, you will have it.
AMBUJ KHANNA 