Does God Exist? Who Created the Universe?

I was born in a Hindu family. Right from childhood, I experienced extreme pain and suffering. I was bullied by students almost every day and beaten by teachers.

Moreover, I had an abusive father who used to beat me for not studying. This used to happen every day in school and at home.

At the age of 17, I experienced a spiritual awakening. Due to such pain and suffering, both at home and at school, I became an atheist.

Finding My Guru

During those days, I found my Guru, who was a spiritual teacher at my school. I began to have questions about this creation. He answered all my questions using logic and explained that God is a higher power, a formless entity.

Before my spiritual awakening, I used to cry in front of Hindu idols. Since childhood, I had prayed to God for good classmates and teachers. But my every prayer was useless.

But when I met my Guru and he helped me understand God and this creation, I left my Hindu religious conditioning.

Although in school I was assured that there is a power behind all this creation, which we call “God”. But even after leaving school, I still doubted the existence of God.

A Turning Point… Kundalini Awakening

However, a turning point came into my life in August 2014, at the age of 31. I experienced a Kundalini awakening.

I realised God by myself. I realised God is not a person who looks like us. It is beyond our level of imagination as to ‘How is He’. Is he a form or a formless entity? Then, who is ‘He’ and how can we understand him?

I was a science student in my school. I still remember my Guru’s words. I once asked him about science, and he told me that science itself is, in reality, a creation of God.

When my Kundalini was awakened in 2014, I began receiving answers to my questions. I was talking to a force through intuition in my solitude.

I started getting answers to my scientific questions, which were:

1. The planets in our solar system are perfectly positioned from the Earth, where life on Earth occurs.
2. All the animals that breathe as well as perform sexual reproduction ‘instinctively’.
3. The blood which flows in our veins is perfectly pumped by the heart.
4. What is intuition? It is what a hidden force tries to make us feel, and through that feeling, we can know the truth.

During those days, I gained wisdom on my own through solitude and intuition.

I fell in love with God, thinking I am God’s beloved. I sincerely believe that it is because I am a pure-hearted soul; God is protecting, guiding, helping, and taking care of me.

The Final Realisation

I realised that my extreme pain and suffering were a part of a divine plan. I rose from the ashes (or my suffering) like a phoenix! It was God who made me believe that he exists.

Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars

-Kahlil Gibran